Got My Back

My sister in law is a good friend to me. Hahahahahah 

Everyone's got a little crazy in them

There must be something wrong with me, right? Well, a lot of things are. I'm specifically thinking of one of these idiosyncrasies. 

How many people work with adults at their jobs? Basically most, in some shape or form. I always have. Work has also always been a huge mental road block for me, as well. It has been the number one cause of anxiety in my adult life. And child life. 

There have been people in all of my jobs that have given me physical illnesses because of the discomfort they cause me. Work has always been dreadful. Part time jobs were my only route to living a sane life. Well as sane as you can get being me. This isn't normal. It's probably just straight up an inexcusable way to live. Probably need to get help. Except that I have found a solution.

I spend my work days with 3 different children. Although they test my patience and baby hunger, they don't begin any anxious feelings out of me. I also don't need to worry about how their parents feel about me, because if they had any negative feelings towards me then I wouldn't be in charge if their children.

I'm a functioning human being. I even sleep with the tv off. Which is huge, and I can't even explain it. I haven't slept in silence since probably before kindergarten. 

It's exciting to me, no matter how many ridiculous things were learned about me.

Oh another note, Halloween was good. Not a sentence I have said often.