Back to the future

The future. Meaningful. Bright. Terrifying. Worthwhile. Exciting. Freeeaking freaky. 

It makes me have to pee, poo, puke. Literally. 

But seriously, I don't feel so good.

Baby Names

Girls

Logan

Zalie

Kate

Cora

Eden

Boys

Perry

Hugh

Abraham

Oscar

But in no specific order of favorites!!

5 pounds later

I try to bring food with me when I nanny the baby. But it's hard to know what to bring when you don't want to keep it in their fridge. After Christmas, it's just been a ton of candy. You'd probably be disgusted with the amount of treats I eat, and the lack of anything else, really. 

Today I dropped a skittle down my shirt. I found it in my armpit. I decided on not eating it. Then 5 minutes later, I found chocolate smeared down my pants.

I'm not even on my period. There's not excuse for my behavior.

hoarding my feelings

What do you say when someone tells you they think of you when they watch animal hoarders?

I wanted to say um, I have 2 kitties. I also have panic attacks in messy areas, and I have a bad case of throwing things out.

Marcus told me I should've said well, I've been watching Desperate Housewives and you remind me of them. 

But you know what really happened? I smiled and laughed. 

Sometimes I think I'm too tactful, too sweet outwardly. The inside of me, not so much. It's getting harder everyday to keep the aggression locked up.  

Beauty

Gods Creations are stunning, and inspiring. This year I will be a more Christlike human.

I won't feel guilty over things I shouldn't. I will feel guilty over things I should. No justification.

More things I hope to be better at in 2014:

Read more

Join an exercise class

Move 

Attend church every week

Make a new friend

Start the pregnant process....this does no mean get pregnant! This means think about it. Haha 

Pay off debts

Go to the library

No shopping

Journal