4 month old Lo

Logan turned 4 months on Sunday! She basically woke up and had all kinds of new tricks. She discovered her feet and it was crazy cute. She likes to scratch cushions and things all of the sudden. She finally discovered the kitties. And she got to try bananas! It was a very confusing experience for her. She wasn't sure how to do it or what the heck was going into her mouth. I'm not really sure if she's ready for food, but I am. :) So she's trying it. The whole weekend Kathryn was here. She picked the best time to come meet Lo. She's more fun every single day. I can't get over her and how lucky I am that she was the baby I got blessed to mother! It was sad to say goodbye to Kathryn. I do not approve of my family being spread apart. That needs to end. 

2014

Logan is 3 1/2 months old. She's a lot of fun right now! She is the happiest, smiley girl. She's social, chatty, and loves everyone. She does have her favorites though, especially mom. She loves her Christmas presents. She is batting and grabbing. It's the best feeling I have ever felt to watch her learn and develop. She sleeps through the night. She's the best baby. I love her so much!

This year has been HARD. Adjusting to being a mom is exhausting, lonely, emotional. I was traumatized from giving birth, and the recovery period. Breastfeeding made me lose my mind, and my inability to do it brought guilt. The difference in me, and Logan once we switched to formula was a complete 180. I also am feeling better about after baby body, but do not bring up more children. And after all the emotions I have felt, my goal for the past month or so has been to try to make everyone feel loved. I don't want anyone to feel forgotten, left out, or lonely. This is something I plan on working on for the rest of my life. It may take that long too, with my introverted self who fears anything social. 

Morherhood has definitely changed me in probably every way. I'm proud of who I'm becoming, and I'm grateful for Marcus and Logan helping me become my best self.

Happy New Year from the Matthews!