For now I'm just going to be sad. Miss you Kev.

Marcus and I hadn't been married for 2 months yet when the kitties joined the family. We moved to Boise right after we were married, which wasn't the plan. I had never moved out of my parents, so I was adjusting.

My in-laws saw kitties for free, and called to see if I wanted one. Benson and Meah wanted a kitty so they came along. I hard time choosing but I ended up picking Kurt. Benson got Kevin.

Somehow I was lucky enough to adopt Kevin, and he became mine as well. He was easy to love, and hard to like as a kitten. He was the alpha which made him be mean to Kurt.

His balls made him a monster. When we finally fixed them, he never learned how to walk normal because he was so used to big balls in between his legs. I loved him once those were gone so much.

He was the friendliest cat. He literally made friends with every cat he saw, and forced all to love and cuddle him. He was protective of Logan the moment he sensed my body was changing.

He was amazing with her once she was born. I was so excited for them to grow up together because he would let her smack him, and pull on him, and he would just purr. I will deeply miss his night time snuggles.

His snuggles will truly be the worst part of him being gone. He was so easy going, and hilarious. Not a normal cat in the slightest.

Kurt has been so needy the last few days. I didn't know why at first. Now my heart hurts for him. Kurt only loved 2 living things, me and Kev. I feel terrible.

I feel like I failed as a mother, and should have taken better care of Kevin. An amazingly sweet lady found Kevin while she was on a walk. She looked for his collar, which I don't think I would have done if I had found a cat with half of his body missing. His collar wasn't salvageable but she cleaned off his tag, and gave it to us. It's now my key chain, although it's kind of sad to look at because it's scratched up pretty badly.

We buried him this morning at my in-laws backyard. He was a family member. He wasn't just a stupid cat, although he really was. 

I know I'll see him again, but for now it hurts. I feel sad for Kurt, and I'm heartbroken that he won't grow up letting Logan terrorize him. It's painful saying goodbye. I just want one last squeeze. I love that cat.