Let me see you work work

I have never experienced having a job that:

•does not give me anxiety

•is fulfilling

•teaches me valuable lessons daily

•I'm excited to go to, come the beginning of the week

•doesnt has multiple parts that I loathe

•doesnt push me further into the realm of social anxiety

Until now.

My jobs are hard. I feel I can see a glimmer into how I'll feel as a mom. Ending the day somewhat dissatisfied with my patience. Feeling I could have done better, with a goal to try harder the following day. 

My work week ends and I'm relieved to see the weekend. Sunday night falls upon me, and I'm excited, rejuvenated, ready, determined.

I feel like what I'm doing is of great value. Not because of what I'm doing, or how I'm helping. I'm learning. I'm blessed by their presences. I'm developing. 

I'm also unsure how I'll ever be able to be a mother. Don't think too hard about it. It's terrifying!